The Gurl ♥
♥♥ JuLy Baby
♥♥ Turning to a Legal age
♥♥ Short
♥♥ im a JAVA-Lay-PoReaN *winkx*
♥♥ Nursing student @ NYP
♥♥ Love her family and friends
♥♥ Am in a
♥♥if you love me den thank you.
♥♥if you hate me den phuck you. =))
The Notes ♥
The Loves ♥
♥♥ MeiLing
♥ Ada
♥ Wei-Qi
♥ Alyn
♥ Nabx
♥ Syed
♥ Eileen
♥ Nadia
♥ Faten
♥ Siti
♥ Joey
♥ Khalilah
♥ Hayati
♥ Syaf
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♥♥ Credits to zyma for doing my pic and takin de trouble of creating dis blog 4 me. thx gal! *smilex*
Saturday, March 29, 2008 ♥
first and for most, i would like to say sorry to my dear darling meiling. i don't know what's wrong with me this days. i had not been picking up her calls and would just off my phone for no apparent reason! which equals to making her piss! ouh well.. im sorry. im becoming weaker both mentally and physically. i don't really want to talk things out with people. and i don't know what's happening to begin with. i suppose maybe the attatchment are making me stress
. a staff told me that 3years of studying is not enough. and it is so very the true! i hate it when that happens. im really doubting myself dis days. im really not sure if i can go through all this downfalls which are set upon me. im scared to graduate as a nurse. nurse holds so much responsibility and im really scared i can't handle it all. so if any of you think that nursing is an EASY job. ouh. gosh people, it is SO NOT! people just expect so many things from a nurse and yet they don't appreciate a nurse. people will only appreciate a nurse when dey or a family member lay sick on the hospital bed. and i can tell you, it is very TRUE!! gee.. im phsyically unwell this days too. if im in a stuffy room or a stuffy place when im standing, i will just get a very bad headache, i'll start to cold sweat and i really need to sit down. sometimes at night i'll just start to get a bad headache and i end up having to sleep early. had not been talkin to darling n dd this days on the phone. i will make up for it soon. i promise..
. a staff told me that 3years of studying is not enough. and it is so very the true! i hate it when that happens. im really doubting myself dis days. im really not sure if i can go through all this downfalls which are set upon me. im scared to graduate as a nurse. nurse holds so much responsibility and im really scared i can't handle it all. so if any of you think that nursing is an EASY job. ouh. gosh people, it is SO NOT! people just expect so many things from a nurse and yet they don't appreciate a nurse. people will only appreciate a nurse when dey or a family member lay sick on the hospital bed. and i can tell you, it is very TRUE!! gee.. im phsyically unwell this days too. if im in a stuffy room or a stuffy place when im standing, i will just get a very bad headache, i'll start to cold sweat and i really need to sit down. sometimes at night i'll just start to get a bad headache and i end up having to sleep early. had not been talkin to darling n dd this days on the phone. i will make up for it soon. i promise..
so anyway, for thursday and friday's attatchment, i was posted to go to fuchun n bukit view primary skul. both of the school's are so much bigger and better then my own secondary school. gosh.. can you belive that?? grr.. anyway. ccss is having their sports day on 2nd april(WED). i'm still not sure if i can go anot. cause im still having my posting in the ward. i was so looking for it seh. but end up i can't go. *sianx* maybe i shall meet you people up after my attatchment at 3 okie?? ouh yeah. i saw mr loke on thursday. shall not elaborate. so aniway. back to my posting at bukit view primary. de p1 kids are SO KIUT!!! yet very naughty. -_- all of dem had diffrent attitudes and naughtiness. deres dis kid call damien. gosh.. his damn freaking naughty lar.. he climbed de handle of de library door and fell and den stood back up and laugh. den dere's this kid he keep telling me that his angry and when i turn my back against him, he ran away laughing and screaming around. gosh.. dey are so damn kiut!!!! felt like bringing one back home. and obviusly i can't right? hmm.. im planning to go to SHS when i want to settle down. let's see, when i have kids i suppose. =)) cause SHS is office hours. but it would be after years of nursing in ward. wow! my imagination is so far ahead. ouh well..
so as promised, i talked to ling on friday night. yesh2.. like finally. i know. we had planned to stop talking at 12 but ended up extending it. just to much to talk about. guys are just so un-understandable. right ling?? =P so called dd and confrenced. had a tiff AGAIN! like gosh. hang up on ling and talked things out with him. he is just so irritating la!! end up , everything was ok and back to normal.wth? tell me again why must it start? gee.. hating this feeling of ok den fight den ok. it's just stuppiiidd OK!! i mean seriously. it's stupid.~
aniway, im proud to say that i had finish reading a whole story book. de book which ada borrowed me like months ago? hekx. kept reading de book during my long journey to sgh and coming back. RAPE: a love story is a nice story to read. applaud to de writer. and ada thx 4 recomending it. im so into reading now. uhh.. did i just say that? hmm..
infatuation; an extravagant foolish admiration.
so is this an infatuation or love?
nysa sayang dd
Love Nysa♥ ;
Friday, March 28, 2008 ♥
~pictures of thurs and fri. dont mind us, we need to do a project on vision and hence you see de snellen chart.~
Love Nysa♥ ;
Monday, March 24, 2008 ♥
sunday night talk to ling n zyma on de fone for like 4-5hours. was very fun!! dey bomb-barded me with so much to think off. i noe you guyx meant well, n i appreciate it lots gals..=)) so dey dint want me to fall asleep, so dey start askin me medical qn.. wow. now you guyx noe wad to do huh? very good.. =)) ended up puting down de phone at 3.50++AM. so i slept n woke up damn early de next day. can't really get to sleep, but was just nice to sleep la kn. get ready for attatchment. trainED to outram. gals kept me company thru my whole journey. nice nice nice!! ling said gd morning ALOT of times n zyma kept singing, grr.. im in de train with uni, so had to maintain my voice n not sing. baik ar! =S
met pj at train station n headed to ward. everything was ok. well, ok till report taking. so, we had report taking at this room. i had my giddiness again. dis is really freaky u noe. i feel like yawning but i cant. when i yawn, my eyes roll to de back.. eeissshh.. not nice not nice not nice!! esther was kind enuff to give me de whole fan, but still felt uncomfortable. start to cold sweat n ended up squating. uhh.. wad a nice thing to do. after report-taking sat down n drink water. felt better after that. started normal afternoon routine aftr that. during break ate only muffin n ice-kacang. got hungry n giddiness return nearin the end of de day.sheesshh.. at 9pm left ward automatically! so travelled back down to home.
dd is suppose to meet me n send me home. his dikir ended late, so when i just pass by bedok, he called me n ask to meet.. eeisshh... drop at tanah merah n return to bedok.. dumb dumb dumb!! met dd. his with his frens, yus n syain. dey r slipin over at dd's place, god noes 4 wad la! gay gay gay!! harhaharr.. trainED down to tamp. since i was hungry, wanted to buy food at pasar malam, but just could'nt decide wad to eat. started complaing to dd. he just gave me one blank face n told me to eat egg at home.. sheesh.. so de guys accompanied dd to send me home. thx guys.. dey kept disturbing me, saying that im dd's lil sis. ouh shuttup guyx! im so ignoring you!! whee.. sent me home n dey left for dd's home which is only one bus away, so no complain.
usual time of returning home is 9.55++. going home with dd 10.45++! dats so late la kn. but ouh wellss..
met pj at train station n headed to ward. everything was ok. well, ok till report taking. so, we had report taking at this room. i had my giddiness again. dis is really freaky u noe. i feel like yawning but i cant. when i yawn, my eyes roll to de back.. eeissshh.. not nice not nice not nice!! esther was kind enuff to give me de whole fan, but still felt uncomfortable. start to cold sweat n ended up squating. uhh.. wad a nice thing to do. after report-taking sat down n drink water. felt better after that. started normal afternoon routine aftr that. during break ate only muffin n ice-kacang. got hungry n giddiness return nearin the end of de day.sheesshh.. at 9pm left ward automatically! so travelled back down to home.
dd is suppose to meet me n send me home. his dikir ended late, so when i just pass by bedok, he called me n ask to meet.. eeisshh... drop at tanah merah n return to bedok.. dumb dumb dumb!! met dd. his with his frens, yus n syain. dey r slipin over at dd's place, god noes 4 wad la! gay gay gay!! harhaharr.. trainED down to tamp. since i was hungry, wanted to buy food at pasar malam, but just could'nt decide wad to eat. started complaing to dd. he just gave me one blank face n told me to eat egg at home.. sheesh.. so de guys accompanied dd to send me home. thx guys.. dey kept disturbing me, saying that im dd's lil sis. ouh shuttup guyx! im so ignoring you!! whee.. sent me home n dey left for dd's home which is only one bus away, so no complain.
usual time of returning home is 9.55++. going home with dd 10.45++! dats so late la kn. but ouh wellss..
got up early today. while typing, im eating breakfast. hopefully nothing happen cus im flying solo today without help from collegues. all of dem went to SHS for attatchment. nice!!
Love Nysa♥ ;
Sunday, March 23, 2008 ♥
yesterday was my 1year and 1month with him. or is it 1month with him? hmm.. he still cant get it inside his head lar. ouh well. i became a nice GF, n went for maulud at tamp stadium to see dd perform. called everyone and asked if they wana go with me and was turned off instanly. hmm.. was supose to go with zyma. but sadly she's sick. down with fever. pity her lar.. rest well babe. =)) ended up going with my lil bro. ouh yes.. my lil bro. so went down to tamp stadium using tudong. hmm.. me? tudong? ouh yeah! when we reach which i suppose is already late, we obviusly din't get a sit. stand up all de way at the back of the stadium. hide behind the walls, but dd ended up seeing me. gee.. he smiled n was like "err?? ok...". his friends saw me n obviusly was shock. yaya. wadever guys! so dey performed. n dey lose.. uhhh.. pity dem la. never mine guys. so dey can beat you in nasyid, try DIKIR!! hakx. soon after that, left home. de guys went to "lepak" at my house park. so lyd duh, ended up bringing down food n drinks for dem. gee.. momy said its for the people from eutopia!! hee..
2dae im pissed! so i am suppose to meet dd, darling n zam. n it was cancel. let's just say dd din't wana go out cause his tired. whatever boy! pissed off seh! needed time alone after a tiff with him. so off my phone n slept. uhh.. so now i noe y people like to off their phone when they are pissed. it really works seh! im quite calmed right now. really2 sorry to ling. sorry for not calling n stuff. was just very pissed off with him. n needed time on my own.~
2dae im pissed! so i am suppose to meet dd, darling n zam. n it was cancel. let's just say dd din't wana go out cause his tired. whatever boy! pissed off seh! needed time alone after a tiff with him. so off my phone n slept. uhh.. so now i noe y people like to off their phone when they are pissed. it really works seh! im quite calmed right now. really2 sorry to ling. sorry for not calling n stuff. was just very pissed off with him. n needed time on my own.~
Love Nysa♥ ;
Friday, March 21, 2008 ♥
1 week of attachment is finally over! ouh yes! OVER!!~ first few days of attachment was horrible. came back with bad cramps on my leg and a very miserable body. ward75 is an OTO ward. previously I've been posted to a rehab ward. n now an OTO ward? do my face look as if i love to deal with bones? gee.. was fun doing tractions and look at nurses pulling patients leg. literally pulling!! patients here are very quiet. dey just know how to sleep. i mean seriously. i didn't talk to any patient at all! I'm kinda lost in this ward because majority are chinese and i really need to have a translator if i want to do anything. I'm trying to learn chinese with colleagues!! ouhyes, my colleagues. the people who are in the same shift and same room with me are Esther, grace n another girl. Esther's nice. she's an ex-EN. so learn a lot from her. *smiles* sadly PJ isn't in-charge with the same room with me. sadness! n yes. found 2 new BEST FRIEND who will follow you everywhere you go. isn't that nice?? gee.. so glad i have these BEST FRIENDS! staff at ward75 looks very intimidating in the beginning, but when time pass by, they are ok. yes. even the EN are nice. =)) staff here are hot!! yes2.. sizzling hot!! wuut.. the doctors are them cute la. ang moh some more.. they talk to me you know. n you know what they say. "student can help me take dressing cloth" -gee.. wth? can't you ask me for other better stuff?? *winkx* n there's another Doctor whose butt became the talk off all the nurses here. his butt they say; is sizzling hot. which is so not actually. like duck la girl. =P alright I'm being very random and lame here. enough of my attachment..
ouhyess.. thank god, i pass everything and able to go up to year 2!! wuhuu.. no more green sticker on my badge. say hello to blue babe! wuuts.. da kakak-kakak la ku ini. heee.. i am so gonna wear lanyard on the first few days of school when the juniors don't have them yet. call me a nerd for all i care! *winkx* really looking forward for the re-opening of school. n yes. I'm gonna work hard on year 2! i promise myself n someone. i think.. hekx. so zyma, we shal meet more often at blk S and koufu. im sure you know where they are kn?. hmm.. randomising!~
*was emotionally disturb the past few days. and because of that, i made you angry. but inside that anger i found out something true about you. the words you say touch me and i hope it isn't just words. prove it to me boy...*
Love Nysa♥ ;
Sunday, March 16, 2008 ♥
heratiest congratulations to dd's dikir team in winning today's competittion.
congratulation to cucu datuk merah!
gosh ur name is so not nice, but yeah u guys won! so everyday hearing dd sing all day long n keep on hearing his dikir songs really pays off. congrats ppl! nya, to anyone who is conducting any events or wedding, n if you want to have a dikir perfoemance. they do outside performance. i had seen dem perform alot of time n im sure you guys wont regret having them on your event. seriously their good. whee.~
gosh ur name is so not nice, but yeah u guys won! so everyday hearing dd sing all day long n keep on hearing his dikir songs really pays off. congrats ppl! nya, to anyone who is conducting any events or wedding, n if you want to have a dikir perfoemance. they do outside performance. i had seen dem perform alot of time n im sure you guys wont regret having them on your event. seriously their good. whee.~
Love Nysa♥ ;
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ok lets like recap what i have been doing lately. it was an AMAZING week! i swear dis week was one of the weeks i'l cherish my whole life! ouh yes..
went out with momy n nanan on tuesday. went shopping. ouhyeah! SHOPPING!! wuuts! got my shirt n its super nice! ordered it as there wasnt any of my size! shitty feeling that i had to pay it on my one. ouh well..
went out with the girls i cherish on wednesday. fyi, itz ling, zyma n alyn! ouh. this bad ass bitches i truly love! went karaoka-in!! it was very nice dat all of us FINALLY met up aftr months of not meeting! hmm.. (sth lydat la kn) dis was de fers few times i see zyma sing in person la. =)) but was kinda bored la, cux almos all de malay song i dont know how to sing. so much 4 being a malay. yar ryt! took pictures of our craziness unde de void-deck. how nyc cn de place be? hakx.
went out with de guy im lovin on thursday! n btw is dd. it was nice dat finally i get to c him aftr 2weekx. n ya, thx ling 4 coaxing him to go out with me. he fetch me from home. yar! home. (so not him) ate breakfast n left 4 sumwhere in tampines n went simei. got my shoes in size 3 1/2. lyd wth kn? ouh well. cabED back to tampines. got my shirt which i ordered on tuesday! n im ignoring the fact that he says i'l look like one minah if i were to were dat n he don want to go out with me if i were to wear that. ouh shuttup boy! watch step up 2! its a very nice show! recomended for everyone to see. n yes ling, im sorry! he sent me off n went to skol for dikir. it was nyc to spent almoz a whole day with him. this is rare n i love that its dis way. his changing n im glad it is dat way.
stayed at home de whole day on friday.
ystdae went to buy cloth for my baju kurong. i had no intentions to get one. but soon got jealous of mom went she bought nice cloth. so i bought green n orange cloth! so yeah. n ling, im still buyin PINK if dd still insist on getin dat. so yes gal. no chance! whee!!
im resting my butt at home today! tomorrow is a start of my attatchment at sgh wd75! gosh. heard is one of the busietst ward in sgh. like wth? but im so looking 4 it cux like finally i get to c my frens! half of them la! =P but im so not looking for the travelling down to outram at 6am in de mornin n travelling back to tampines at 9pm! freaks!!~
Love Nysa♥ ;
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*pictures paints a thousand werds. n if i had not said enough. just so u gals noe, i really appreciate u gals. n really thank all of you for entering my life. n yes, THAT'S WHAT FRIENDS ARE FOR*
~much love, nysa (de english one=P)*
~much love, nysa (de english one=P)*
Love Nysa♥ ;
Monday, March 10, 2008 ♥
weekend was fun FUN fun!!
~SATurday
went to momy's "family day at pasir ris park". some singhealth stuff la. was fun lookin at how aunty's run! yeah!! hilarious! got to know some tamp poly nurses! this is so helpful for my attatchment next tym! CGH came top for overall! wow! n i taut KKH, with all the fit peepz are gonna win. it's so intermidating! sat down at beachbreaker n recalled back about the past. ouh-so-nice past of mine. ouh ya. dd n friends got trouble with the law and have to pay a hefty fine. chipPED in a lil. many thx 2 ling 4 transferin for me some cash! dd's friends had to trade in their handphones. much pity to them! =(( ouh well. aunty tina sent us to white sands. look around for intresting stuffs but there's NONE! was looking for shoes but there is'nt any which is my size!! like WTH! ouh well. after walking around. went home and had fun talking to dd. n ya, dd made me smile today! *smilex*~
~SUNday
went to org kahwin in de morning. was raining. so i was kinda thankful that i had not followed dd n family to wild wild wet! ouh i miss lil'yana. have long to meet that cute lil baby! boo!! niwae, after goin to the wedding. family drop me off and i headed down to TOA PAYOH with kebaye shirt n jeans. kinda emberassing u noe! the train was damn pack with ppl. double the emberessment! met darling ling at toa payoh and went around to find my shoes! nya, lyd duh, upon reaching toa payoh, i CHANGED!! ling got frustrated went there wasn't even ONE shoe which is allowed and could fit me. blame my fit for being small! hahakx. ate at kfc. nya. eat AGAIN!! gosh! had some eye-washing. ouh.. that guy was kiut!! opz.. did i jus sae that? n ling. the white guy suits u more! fair with fair n tan with tan. so mine would be de rider n yours will be that guy! whee!! had fun laughing our ass out! wanted to find hand lotion but just could'nt find the want i want!! my hands getting dry by the minute n not forgetting next week's attatchment. which just means, DOUBLE the time i wash my hands! n ya geting my hand dryER! *shittx* niwae, headed to bugis n wnted to shop. but went around bugis street n i found ZERO!! nothing to buy which was on my list! not even dd's stuff!! gosh again my feet problem. ouh well.. went to starbuck n chill. rhoma will be so mad with me, cux i owe him a drink n have YET to go! hakx. chilled and talk about our guyx. guyx can be so irritating but yet we learn to love them n causing us to wont be able to live without them! boo! niwae, chated n talk bout the suprise party planed up for them. dd wants this party so much so should be doing it for him. my money is burning!!!~ but its fun planning this cux i bet it would be so much FUN!! except for the part that there would be drinks!! i cant risk havin dd drunk again. but ouh well. taught of meeting dd. but was REJECTED. family day aper!! bored. bored. bored! chilled til 8plus and left bugis for yishun. ling left at toa payoh. n i headed down to yishun to meet my mom at cuzin's house. actually to meet up with ernie!! haha! shitshitshit! arman n kak nana fetch me at yishun to cuz place. had bbq food but soon after left for home. i wana go penin to find something. n i need to go to simei to get my shoes. hopefully!!~
~MONday
did nth. got to know from ling that she had told zam bout it! lerr. no more suprise for zam den. but i will soon tell dd too cause lyd duh i dont know his friend. n you dont possibly think that i would talk to them kn?? hahakX!!~
~SATurday
went to momy's "family day at pasir ris park". some singhealth stuff la. was fun lookin at how aunty's run! yeah!! hilarious! got to know some tamp poly nurses! this is so helpful for my attatchment next tym! CGH came top for overall! wow! n i taut KKH, with all the fit peepz are gonna win. it's so intermidating! sat down at beachbreaker n recalled back about the past. ouh-so-nice past of mine. ouh ya. dd n friends got trouble with the law and have to pay a hefty fine. chipPED in a lil. many thx 2 ling 4 transferin for me some cash! dd's friends had to trade in their handphones. much pity to them! =(( ouh well. aunty tina sent us to white sands. look around for intresting stuffs but there's NONE! was looking for shoes but there is'nt any which is my size!! like WTH! ouh well. after walking around. went home and had fun talking to dd. n ya, dd made me smile today! *smilex*~
~SUNday
went to org kahwin in de morning. was raining. so i was kinda thankful that i had not followed dd n family to wild wild wet! ouh i miss lil'yana. have long to meet that cute lil baby! boo!! niwae, after goin to the wedding. family drop me off and i headed down to TOA PAYOH with kebaye shirt n jeans. kinda emberassing u noe! the train was damn pack with ppl. double the emberessment! met darling ling at toa payoh and went around to find my shoes! nya, lyd duh, upon reaching toa payoh, i CHANGED!! ling got frustrated went there wasn't even ONE shoe which is allowed and could fit me. blame my fit for being small! hahakx. ate at kfc. nya. eat AGAIN!! gosh! had some eye-washing. ouh.. that guy was kiut!! opz.. did i jus sae that? n ling. the white guy suits u more! fair with fair n tan with tan. so mine would be de rider n yours will be that guy! whee!! had fun laughing our ass out! wanted to find hand lotion but just could'nt find the want i want!! my hands getting dry by the minute n not forgetting next week's attatchment. which just means, DOUBLE the time i wash my hands! n ya geting my hand dryER! *shittx* niwae, headed to bugis n wnted to shop. but went around bugis street n i found ZERO!! nothing to buy which was on my list! not even dd's stuff!! gosh again my feet problem. ouh well.. went to starbuck n chill. rhoma will be so mad with me, cux i owe him a drink n have YET to go! hakx. chilled and talk about our guyx. guyx can be so irritating but yet we learn to love them n causing us to wont be able to live without them! boo! niwae, chated n talk bout the suprise party planed up for them. dd wants this party so much so should be doing it for him. my money is burning!!!~ but its fun planning this cux i bet it would be so much FUN!! except for the part that there would be drinks!! i cant risk havin dd drunk again. but ouh well. taught of meeting dd. but was REJECTED. family day aper!! bored. bored. bored! chilled til 8plus and left bugis for yishun. ling left at toa payoh. n i headed down to yishun to meet my mom at cuzin's house. actually to meet up with ernie!! haha! shitshitshit! arman n kak nana fetch me at yishun to cuz place. had bbq food but soon after left for home. i wana go penin to find something. n i need to go to simei to get my shoes. hopefully!!~
~MONday
did nth. got to know from ling that she had told zam bout it! lerr. no more suprise for zam den. but i will soon tell dd too cause lyd duh i dont know his friend. n you dont possibly think that i would talk to them kn?? hahakX!!~
Love Nysa♥ ;
Thursday, March 6, 2008 ♥
my phone is very de PHUCK UP!! argh! i dont know it's just my phone or m1's having some kinda problem. my sim card sometimes can't detect reception which did i tel you sucks?? gosh. it's very irritating when i can't call out and can't receive any msgs! lerr!!
ystd met zyma at 5plux aftr both my parents come home. went to print her pictures which took damn long! n we drank our old-time favourite OREO ICE BLENDED from that particular shop! bought waffles and ate 2. was very hesitant to eat chocolate. n no zyma, me and chocolate did'nt fight! is just that i don't feel like it. yeah. you'r crap! *winks* niwaes, sat at the usual place and obviusly talk n gossip! hakx! we chatted about our long time fav topic, SECONDARY SCHOOL! gosh i miss the place i once call shit! haha. chatted till raffi finish his soccer. lerr.. nvr get to see danny! (is that his name?) haks. i was just kidding ok zyma! ouhya. n thx for tellin de others my intention! much appreciated!!
went back after that. talk on the phone with dd and darling meiling! it had been long since we confrenced together! i love this two la kn. makes me smile.=))
aniway, ling was usually the centre person whenever we quarelled! hakx. thx gal. =)) chatted and most of the time, dd sang or let us here his songs. boo.. both of them will sleep some time. and will leave me clueless sometime! the only diffrence between both of them is ling dosen't snore and dd will! ouh yes. he snores and very LOUDLY! gosh. buruk seh! n in the end, while he sang (which i had told dd sounded like a lullaby to ling) ling lyd duh, sleep! hakx. put down on her and continued talking to him.
aniway, ling was usually the centre person whenever we quarelled! hakx. thx gal. =)) chatted and most of the time, dd sang or let us here his songs. boo.. both of them will sleep some time. and will leave me clueless sometime! the only diffrence between both of them is ling dosen't snore and dd will! ouh yes. he snores and very LOUDLY! gosh. buruk seh! n in the end, while he sang (which i had told dd sounded like a lullaby to ling) ling lyd duh, sleep! hakx. put down on her and continued talking to him.
finally took de courage to tell him about de song *cintaku dipermainkan*. he seems to know the song. gee.. the lyrics is how i feel. after letting him de whole song, he sounded diff. as in sad? finally i get him to know how i feel.=)) he asked me to type in de lyrics on phone and msg him. was reluctant but end up i did. so finally he can read it and will be aware of how i feel! he tried playing de song himself. he was frustrated that he cant get it but kept trying. put down on him when he say he wanted to sleep but lyd duh, he wont la. his still trying to get the music. i slept. at 3am he called me n was happy that finally he got de song. his version was happy version! hakx. slept soon aftr he sang for me that song. ~
woke up at 11 2day. late as usual! rush to do all de housework. im so behind time. *bluecks* bought dad's n bro food. waiting 4 dem to return so i can eat my lunch with them. ~
~lyrics to cintaku dipermainkan~
Tidakkah engkau tahu syg
Betapaku syg pada mu
Engkaulah insan yg ku cinta untk selama-lamanya
Tapi disebaliknya apa yg kau berikan padaku
Kasih dan syg kini tiada
pilunya di hatiku...
kini kau berubah...
kau tk seperti dulu
mengapa syg mengapa
engkau jadi begini
kini aku menyesal mencintaimu
kerna cintaku dipermainkan secukup-cukupnya
hampalah hatiku dlm percintaan
engkau membuatku tidak mahu cinta lagi syg
mengapa engkau permainkan cinta yg sudah kita bina
kini klu tk syg lagi berterus terang padaku
jgn lah engkau menyiksa ku
tk sanggup lagi ku menanggung dugaan cinta yg kau beri terhadap diriku
sakitnya hatiku sampainya hatimu
kau tidak melayan diriku seperti dahulu
cuba kau rasakan apa yg telah ku rasa
kini pasti kau juga akan menyesali cintaku
kini airmata pun mula mengalir
engkau masih belum berubah
engkau tetap sama
kini aku meminta maaf kerna hatiku dah tertutup untuk dirimu oh..
syglepaskan aku,
bebaskan aku
pergilah syg
jgn kembali lagi...
ah ah ah..ah ah ah...ah ah ah...
cintaku dipermainkan...
Betapaku syg pada mu
Engkaulah insan yg ku cinta untk selama-lamanya
Tapi disebaliknya apa yg kau berikan padaku
Kasih dan syg kini tiada
pilunya di hatiku...
kini kau berubah...
kau tk seperti dulu
mengapa syg mengapa
engkau jadi begini
kini aku menyesal mencintaimu
kerna cintaku dipermainkan secukup-cukupnya
hampalah hatiku dlm percintaan
engkau membuatku tidak mahu cinta lagi syg
mengapa engkau permainkan cinta yg sudah kita bina
kini klu tk syg lagi berterus terang padaku
jgn lah engkau menyiksa ku
tk sanggup lagi ku menanggung dugaan cinta yg kau beri terhadap diriku
sakitnya hatiku sampainya hatimu
kau tidak melayan diriku seperti dahulu
cuba kau rasakan apa yg telah ku rasa
kini pasti kau juga akan menyesali cintaku
kini airmata pun mula mengalir
engkau masih belum berubah
engkau tetap sama
kini aku meminta maaf kerna hatiku dah tertutup untuk dirimu oh..
syglepaskan aku,
bebaskan aku
pergilah syg
jgn kembali lagi...
ah ah ah..ah ah ah...ah ah ah...
cintaku dipermainkan...
Love Nysa♥ ;
Wednesday, March 5, 2008 ♥
saw sth ystd. so checked on rhoma. he had been moody dis few daex but ive got no tym 2 meet him. so, aftr seeing sth ystd. i finally ask him to have breakfast with me.
so left house aftr doin housework. met him at inter n walk ard in search of his bag n my shoes. ohya, talking about shoes!
i really need to find my attatchement shoes!! my current black shoe, which i use it for my previous attatchment is torn. not really torn. i still can use it though. only thing de bottom is torn from de sole. err?? dun really noe how to explain. so lets just say that it's spoilt and im really in need to get a new shoe ok? simple as that. so if any of you have any recomendation on where to get shoes please tag me.
no crocs for me cause i wanna use stockings and in the morning it will just get wet. so no point buying dat shoes particularly for afternoon shift.
so ok anw, aftr pointlessly getting nothing. headed to delifrance for late-breakfast cum early-lunch. delifrance u noe? so de his idea la kn. ate a WHOLE tuna crossaint (yummy!!) it was worth de 4 bucks or so. cux one thin can really make me full till dinner. it was a healthy breakfast. nya. shall do it again sumtym. nya, recomended 4 u guyx 2 try it! only de crossaint la kn. if dey sae de soup-of-the day is something veggie, den pleasa dont take it. cause seriously it was just ok. n not really nice la kn. =)) ouh well. aftr havin de late-breakfast cum early-lunch. went home while he met his mom n niece.
getting home means more work to be done. mom expect me to do most of the things. which means almost EVERTYTHING! which just equals to TIREDNESS!!! ~_~
so left house aftr doin housework. met him at inter n walk ard in search of his bag n my shoes. ohya, talking about shoes!
i really need to find my attatchement shoes!! my current black shoe, which i use it for my previous attatchment is torn. not really torn. i still can use it though. only thing de bottom is torn from de sole. err?? dun really noe how to explain. so lets just say that it's spoilt and im really in need to get a new shoe ok? simple as that. so if any of you have any recomendation on where to get shoes please tag me.
no crocs for me cause i wanna use stockings and in the morning it will just get wet. so no point buying dat shoes particularly for afternoon shift.
so ok anw, aftr pointlessly getting nothing. headed to delifrance for late-breakfast cum early-lunch. delifrance u noe? so de his idea la kn. ate a WHOLE tuna crossaint (yummy!!) it was worth de 4 bucks or so. cux one thin can really make me full till dinner. it was a healthy breakfast. nya. shall do it again sumtym. nya, recomended 4 u guyx 2 try it! only de crossaint la kn. if dey sae de soup-of-the day is something veggie, den pleasa dont take it. cause seriously it was just ok. n not really nice la kn. =)) ouh well. aftr havin de late-breakfast cum early-lunch. went home while he met his mom n niece.
getting home means more work to be done. mom expect me to do most of the things. which means almost EVERTYTHING! which just equals to TIREDNESS!!! ~_~
his not talking to me and i don't know it thats a good thing. some part of me says yes. but some part of me, just wanna hold back everything. it's just so dificult to be in this spot. im soon gonna breakdown. so till dat day come, shall keep praying that everythings gonna be ok.=((
Love Nysa♥ ;
Tuesday, March 4, 2008 ♥
still feeling not good. n dis suckx!! have to be a pre-housewife at home. *gosh* im gettin tired by de dae. n my coughing is not doin any gd. was very hungry in de morn n was cravin to eat. but there wasnt anythin to eat. end up makin maggi goreng. n deres no taste at all! wth?? dis cough n flu have took all my sense of taste away from me. i jux have no appetite to eat anything!! *roars*
so anw, everyone's post is about sec school frenx. yup2. how secondary frens had made a great impact in our lifes. sec school life is by far de best time i had in my life. here's where u make true frens n stat on kiddy2 bgr. hakx! ouh gosh. my bgr with ismail is de biggest laugh ever. i cant really imagine him being my guy again! not dat his not a gd guy. but... haha! whatever la!
i just miss secondary school shits. hakx! enemey to best frenx? do you really think its true when dey sae u will ferx hate dat person, n when time comes, you'll tend to be closer with dat person?
take for example, me n meiling. we use to hate each other so much!! we hate de sight of de other. we rarely talk to each other. only de few "hi hi bye bye" but now, both of us are closer den ever before. we now rarely NOT tok 2 each other. we will hog on de fone 4 lyd hourS?? hakx. im so thankful that both of us are not as before. she's de ferx person i'll fall to. n dat includes wakin early in de morning n callin her on hw stupid guys can be! *phuck*=)) i appreciate dat gal. n if i nvr had thank you before, dis is de time. thanks for everything! lovin ya!!~
ok. anoder example.. how zyma n alyn get close to us.. n again i tell u. dis two bitches are like totally a bitch back in de past la!! haha.. but now, dey are both good bitches.. does dat make any sense?? nyahaha. okok. seriuxly. both party hated each other. lyd canoot make any eye contact. if dere is, u'll stat 2 here de other party gossipin on how ur skirt is too short or ur hair is juz so cannot do with centre parting! haha. uhh.. dose days.. nya, most importantly, how we fight on guyz!! alyn n rhoma.. klaka la lu babe! dada, kite setle. bear in mind. i dowan ur man. i have mine. (err? actually) n how our fight will be so countless. like for every second or event. we will just fight. i wonder on what.. gee.. one day we shall sit at east coast n tok bout all dis ok?? jus like b4. only dis time. we dont really nid to lie dat we have band. da kakak2, kate kn. *winkx* n till dat dae, we shall c how alyn's progress on her bike. n we shall really help ling get thru bicycle before enrolling herself to bike lesson!! hehe..=))
ouh.. not forgeting. my besties!! ler si rhoma ngn hafiy. sape lagi kn?? dis 2 guyx r my closex guy frenx. since 2dae, we will talk n chat for hours n ya gossip bout others.. can u imagine dat?? guyx do gossip ok!! n dier gossip is much more werx den me n ling's gossip. dey have a name for each guy dey hate. n dey'll stick to it. n i taut only gals does dat. gosh. guyx r so decieving. ouhya. n i miss alif so much la! gosh!! had been ages since ive met him. his kinda very aksyen with us dis daex. everytym we ask him 2 go out with us. he sae he's werkin. wth? i jux miss his craziness la knz...
sec skul tym is oso de tym where u fynd ur 2nd half?? err.. sth lydat. moz of dem hum i noe. dier relationship in dier late-sec life are de most strongest one dey had. dunt u juz miss daes which dey sent u home? dose days where when ur klas n his klas paz by, de whole klas eyes wil stare at bof of you n dey will be goin "uhhhh" n when u try 2 find dem in de not-so-big hall of us. n ya in de canteen.. de ocassional ice war?? haha. use to throw ice at one anoder. n when we hit a person dat we didnt intend to, we jux give a blank face n look at de back. haha. n when ur ouh-so-secret admirer come, de rez wil be lyd "die dtg..die dtg" haha!! eish. i feel lyd runnin from my teriatry life(which didnt mention VERY stressful?) n returnin back to secondary school life. when u noe almoz everyone in skul..
yaya. met fadhil aka dd wae back in sec life too. dats where we ferx met each other. awww...dint remember much bout him back den. didnt noe dat his a matrip. de only thin i remembered was him in his uniform n marchin. i still remembered dat i said to myself dat his cute n he looks like one toy soldier.. awww.. now. he looks like one big n i sae BIG bear.. nyahaha.. but his still cute.. opz? did i jux sae dat.. err..
oh well... dose were de daes.. nya band.. nono. shall not start. it will juz not end. *winkx* okla. i really need to rest right now. rest as in sleep! whee..
so anw, everyone's post is about sec school frenx. yup2. how secondary frens had made a great impact in our lifes. sec school life is by far de best time i had in my life. here's where u make true frens n stat on kiddy2 bgr. hakx! ouh gosh. my bgr with ismail is de biggest laugh ever. i cant really imagine him being my guy again! not dat his not a gd guy. but... haha! whatever la!
i just miss secondary school shits. hakx! enemey to best frenx? do you really think its true when dey sae u will ferx hate dat person, n when time comes, you'll tend to be closer with dat person?
take for example, me n meiling. we use to hate each other so much!! we hate de sight of de other. we rarely talk to each other. only de few "hi hi bye bye" but now, both of us are closer den ever before. we now rarely NOT tok 2 each other. we will hog on de fone 4 lyd hourS?? hakx. im so thankful that both of us are not as before. she's de ferx person i'll fall to. n dat includes wakin early in de morning n callin her on hw stupid guys can be! *phuck*=)) i appreciate dat gal. n if i nvr had thank you before, dis is de time. thanks for everything! lovin ya!!~
ok. anoder example.. how zyma n alyn get close to us.. n again i tell u. dis two bitches are like totally a bitch back in de past la!! haha.. but now, dey are both good bitches.. does dat make any sense?? nyahaha. okok. seriuxly. both party hated each other. lyd canoot make any eye contact. if dere is, u'll stat 2 here de other party gossipin on how ur skirt is too short or ur hair is juz so cannot do with centre parting! haha. uhh.. dose days.. nya, most importantly, how we fight on guyz!! alyn n rhoma.. klaka la lu babe! dada, kite setle. bear in mind. i dowan ur man. i have mine. (err? actually) n how our fight will be so countless. like for every second or event. we will just fight. i wonder on what.. gee.. one day we shall sit at east coast n tok bout all dis ok?? jus like b4. only dis time. we dont really nid to lie dat we have band. da kakak2, kate kn. *winkx* n till dat dae, we shall c how alyn's progress on her bike. n we shall really help ling get thru bicycle before enrolling herself to bike lesson!! hehe..=))
ouh.. not forgeting. my besties!! ler si rhoma ngn hafiy. sape lagi kn?? dis 2 guyx r my closex guy frenx. since 2dae, we will talk n chat for hours n ya gossip bout others.. can u imagine dat?? guyx do gossip ok!! n dier gossip is much more werx den me n ling's gossip. dey have a name for each guy dey hate. n dey'll stick to it. n i taut only gals does dat. gosh. guyx r so decieving. ouhya. n i miss alif so much la! gosh!! had been ages since ive met him. his kinda very aksyen with us dis daex. everytym we ask him 2 go out with us. he sae he's werkin. wth? i jux miss his craziness la knz...
sec skul tym is oso de tym where u fynd ur 2nd half?? err.. sth lydat. moz of dem hum i noe. dier relationship in dier late-sec life are de most strongest one dey had. dunt u juz miss daes which dey sent u home? dose days where when ur klas n his klas paz by, de whole klas eyes wil stare at bof of you n dey will be goin "uhhhh" n when u try 2 find dem in de not-so-big hall of us. n ya in de canteen.. de ocassional ice war?? haha. use to throw ice at one anoder. n when we hit a person dat we didnt intend to, we jux give a blank face n look at de back. haha. n when ur ouh-so-secret admirer come, de rez wil be lyd "die dtg..die dtg" haha!! eish. i feel lyd runnin from my teriatry life(which didnt mention VERY stressful?) n returnin back to secondary school life. when u noe almoz everyone in skul..
yaya. met fadhil aka dd wae back in sec life too. dats where we ferx met each other. awww...dint remember much bout him back den. didnt noe dat his a matrip. de only thin i remembered was him in his uniform n marchin. i still remembered dat i said to myself dat his cute n he looks like one toy soldier.. awww.. now. he looks like one big n i sae BIG bear.. nyahaha.. but his still cute.. opz? did i jux sae dat.. err..
oh well... dose were de daes.. nya band.. nono. shall not start. it will juz not end. *winkx* okla. i really need to rest right now. rest as in sleep! whee..
*to the prank call guy/gal. if you think this is funny den phuck off. if you think this is seriously a good way to break things up between me n dd. den im hating you. for all i know, your intentions are well. this is still not the way. 4 now, his trust towards me are gone. n he thinks im doing it n hence thinkin dat he can do it AGAIN. i swear u better stop. cause de only guy i am with (or sth lydat) is with Muhammad Fadhil Bin Bakeri. not any other guyx. so phuck off and thank you~*
Love Nysa♥ ;
Monday, March 3, 2008 ♥
feelin down de weather dis daex. caughing, sneezing n havein a freakin sore throat. thx dd, kolin me ella. tau tk kol. *blueckx* on sat bake cookies with momy. dd finally return home. *smilex*
sunday when to naked fish at ang mo kio grassroots dere.
to cliques in skul: food dere is 6/10. soya, seoul garden is still a better idea! haha. shall go dere n eat.
niwae, ate sum kinda steak. ok la. swensen nicer..=)) had fondue. dis is nice. momy thinkin 2 buy de machine! *loves* aftr eatin, went down 2 kallang entertaiment centre 2 have a look whats dere. kinda nth la kn. still prefer marina bowling centre. so nobody dere n i wont be shy 2 bowl la kn. miss playin bowlin with dd's family. i have long to go out with em. ouhya! i miss my cuzinx n sedarex!! ada! when u free?? den can plan up with aunty yan. i miss krg lerr.. hmm.. return home soon aftr dat.
dint do much 2dae. lyd duh, im sick n i cant go out. have to become bodyguard.=)) (ling, u noe i noe la kn) shall be a responsible sick gal n stay at home. jux ate cough mixture. *YUCKX* i swear i dono how ppl love to drink cough syrup. eee... drowsiness is arising. soya, kinda goin 2 bed soon aftr dis.
Love Nysa♥ ;
♥
dis are de pics taken durin NRo714 chalet
*while waitin 4 de bikex..*
*gosh, anoder reason to excercise*
*n one of my feet is on de floor..(wth?)*
*smilex*
*i so cant ride dis bike*
*de oder bike's were spoilt, we took pic*
*eww?*
*no one told me not to be informal~phuck~ n were gona grad as nurses? hmm..=))*
Love Nysa♥ ;
Saturday, March 1, 2008 ♥
woke up at 6 in de morning. wanted to send a msg to dd. his goin to some camp from cantoment. but one thin very nice was i dint noe wat tym he stats. so woke up at 6, in hopin 2 catch him b4 he leaves. but end up aftr i switch off de alarm. i slept! lerr...
he den kol me up at 6.30 or so. he was sick n dint wanna go 2 camp. sumhow, everytym he have dis kinda stuff. hell be sick. hmm. nvrm bout dat. he dint wanna go n so he told his mom. his mom wasnt really understandin n fought with him back. n hence makin him took his bag n fled out of home. he dint wanna return. n i was lyd forcin him 2. i think he got fed up with ppl askin him to do thins. n derefore, he stated findin fault with me n screamin at me. n lyd duh, i scream back. n thinx got out of hand. he started to talk thrash about me and sayin thins he dint mean. but i knew it wasnt him. it was dis UGLY BEAST who took over him whenever he gets angry. it jux frust me dat i couldnt control dis beast in him. n y did dis beast came at such a rong time. started cryin, tynkin where did i go wrong. he put down de fone. makin me lost. he rejected my calls aftr dat.
minutes later called him back. he picked up de fone, n i heard him weepin from de other line. till dat moment of time, i knew i had to threw MY ego-ness n help he back up again. talk nicely to him. but all he did was just 2 keep quiet. tried to talk thinx out with him. but to no avail. he tinks im still bein very naggy. (wth?) nvrm. in de end, he put down de fone. at dis kinda time, i know he wants to be alone. n ya learn from socio, dat guyx tend to WANABE alone n not wana gal to hear him cry. n all dey want is 4 de gals to assure them dat dey will be dere 4 dem. soya, i did jux so by msgin him. tried makin him smile by tokin bout lil'yana. uhh.. lil'yana is his niece. n shex oh so kiut. anw, didnt noe if it werkx. cux lyd duh he dint reply!! *bluekx* till now, im stil waitin 4 his kol.
come back home. come back home 4 akak n ana n lil'yana.
come back home. come back home 4 akak n ana n lil'yana.
Love Nysa♥ ;